For as long as I can remember I have struggled with pretty bad anxiety. To the point where it makes me sick to my stomach or I can’t and won’t eat. The knots that form in my gut, the racing heart, the shakiness, the constant thoughts running through my mind. The over thinking and worst case scenarios that never seem to stop. Round and round they go. Over the years I’ve learned to manage the physical aspects with essential oils and breathing exercises. Talking to someone has always helped. The mental aspect, I’ve always turned to the Lord. Scriptures have been the only thing that seems to quiet the thoughts. The scriptures I have memorized the most are all about fear and anxiety, and  I pull them out of my heart and say them out loud. Reading them until my heart and mind calm again. 

Although I’ve learned to cope with the anxiety, I often felt this was just part of who I was. I owned it. Anxiety. It’s become such a part of me, part of my identity. I have worn these words much of my life now. Anxious, over thinker, insecure, worrier… does anyone else do this with things in your life? Although I’ve learned so much through it, I no longer want to identify as these things. 

Like a little row boat, stuck in the middle of big lake, just sitting idle. Floating atop the flat surface. Maybe the anxiety is at bay, controlled. But I’m still not going anywhere. 

God doesn’t want us sitting idle there. He’s given us oars and strength for a reason. And the more we row, we may become tired, but if we keep going we will build up strength and eventually, we will be transformed. And we will reach the edge of the lake where we can get out of that boat. 

See, it’s good to have an arsenal of scripture on hand for these types of things. But there comes a point where we need to pick up the oars and start rowing. Stop owning those thoughts, those traits, those words. 

Allow God to transform your mind and live free of those things! Me saying, “I live with anxiety but I overcome with scripture”,  is not a bad thing, but God wants to transform our minds in such a way that we can now say, “I USED to live with anxiety, but now I am free!”. Sometimes it takes changing our words to ourselves and taking every thought captive, retraining our way of thinking. Speak life, and healing into yourself. And believing it, living it, owning it. Live in the identity that He’s given you. 

“Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.”

Romans 12:2 

Pick up your oars, friend. Start rowing. 

*Row Boat 📸 Cred: Daniel Ian on Upsplash.

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