This past weekend was spent in quiet reflection. Okay, so my big secret… After lots of prayer, I’ve decided to write a book😬. Completely out of my comfort zone as I’m not really a writer by any stretch. But, I felt called to start stepping into something new. I’d been writing a lot the past week, so many ideas, and things my heart wanted to pour out onto the pages. But by the end of the week there were little bumps, distractions, and feelings I can’t quite put a name to. Every time I sat to write, nothing would come. Blocked. I avoided wanting to pin point what it was that actually kept me in this place of feeling stuck.
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If you know me at all, I’m a problem solver, a fixer, a person who doesn’t like things left out of sorts. An over thinker to the max. And I knew, I was avoiding dealing with some internal things. Covering them up in my head and heart, so nice and neatly with books and tv and conversations with friends, everything was fine. I was fine.
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But ever so gently and lovingly, as He always seems to do with me, I felt like God was rolling his eyes at me saying, “how long will we be playing this ‘I’m fine’ game Kerri?”. 🤦🏼♀️
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Well, the truth is, I wasn’t fine. Nothing major, just a lot of little things, that I thought I could handle on my own. Little pricks to my heart from the past, distractions that I let come before God, little things that I didn’t realize were pulling me in different directions leaving my hands too full that even for a brief couple days, I had let go of that invisible cord tethering me to Him.
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So, I knew I had to pivot. This one word always reminds me of that Friends episode. Hilarious! But today, it was a gentle reminder that when I don’t stay tethered to Him, even for a couple days, things become stuck, complicated and confusing. So, I pivot. Turn, refocus, grab hold of that cord keeping me tethered to Him once again and change the position of what I’m trying to fit into my heart and life.
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“Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit by itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in me.” – John 15:4
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Do you need to pivot in some areas of your life, friend? He never lets go of us. But when we let go, we let go of the peaceful and abundant growth He has for us.
